Live life as if the gate is always open. I recently saw this posted somewhere with a happy dog racing along with his ears flying back. I loved it.
What would you do if the gate was open always? I would buy/renovate/rent a mobile home and travel the countryside. I would travel overseas this time with my husband. I would learn another language. I would finally become a yoga teacher. I would finally write something, anything. I would do something for the first time again.
No reason to wait for the gate to open.